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urrrg
pav sure knows how to make you feel bad for not going to the concert you really wanted to go to *insert face that is illegal on blogger* he was all like, why werent you there? i expected to see you up there screaming and blahblah i don't really remember what he said but it's really super annoying cuz i would have LOVED to go to that concert (skillet&hawknelson,baby! and i think the letter black and decypher down woulda been good too), and what's more annoying is the fact that i didn't really try. i brought it up when i found out about it, but what did i think, that mom would just be like, "You can go if you want"? i didn't bother asking because i figured, after all the concerts she has said no you cant go to, why would she say yes to this one? i just didnt want to bother and get all awkward and have to hear another "no." at this point i was so used to this inability to go to a concert that i didn't even care that much, even tho i would have LOOVED to go. so i just.. let it go. and i didn't really care. until i find out someone i know went. because in the past, it wasn't so bad because no one i knew went, and even some of them really wanted to go but couldnt go either, and so i didnt feel so bad. but if you find out someone you know DID go, and it was amazing, you get all jealous. well what's freaking worse is when they rub it in to NO END because "the guy" (john cooper i assume) told them they would play one more song if everyone agreed to tell their friends that didnt come that they were losers, or something of the sort, so pav felt like he was obligated to do so. thanks John, you made my day >.<
@ college he was blabbing to sara about it, saying how good it was, and calling her a loser for not going.
then at church he has to get on me about it.
it doesn't make me mad at him, it makes me freaking TICKED at myself for not even TRYING.
and once i think about it, i had a better chance than normal on this one, because now sara is 18 and can drive (altho she didnt actually seem cool about driving). also, Mom DID let us go to the last one we asked about, cuz it was outdoor and we'd be going with the youth group at our other church. that fell thru, thanks to the youth leader. but i figured it just wasn't meant to be.
then after that, when we found out we missed a barlowgirl concert, mom sounded disappointed for us. sooo maybe she was starting to change her mind. and well, i didn't even try. i didn't even try for HAWK NELSON AND SKILLET, two of my fave bands eveerr, that put on amazing shows (esp skillet). and i was just like whatever once i found out it wasn't going to work to go with heather since she had something that night (she was trying to get it to work for us, for which i am grateful. it was so nice of her.. but it didnt work out eiithher). so after that i was like whatever mom knows i want to go soo yeah. well mom knowing has nothing to do with it. you have to be direct and ASK.
i'm so mad at myself over this that i prayed that an AWESOME concert would work out for us soon. the artists i would wanna see most would be like SKILLET, family force 5, hawk, flyleaf, anyone else good haha. ohhh thats another thing. flyleaf. when their mommento tour dates were released i looked at their short list of places to see if they were coming here. they weren't. then on twitter, on the forth, they say: "thanks to the folks in Portland and Seattle - we had a blast playing these shows!" i was like whattheheck thanks >.<
can someone give me an urrrrrg! my life is frustrating.
but speaking of flyyyleeaf.. they were the one artist i could not see putting out a bad album. because they are just too good. this album was the one album i could not see failing. i could not see their second album, four years after their amazing debut that i'm still not tired of because it's so good, to disappoint. and i was wrong.
sorry, i just had to say that. (did your heart drop into your tummy? bahah you prolly didnt even care)
i was RIGHT as a cat eating kites o.o
they posted their whole original album on myspace. by original i mean it didn't have any of the expanded or itunes only songs, and i'll go into that later.
this album.is.amazing.
ok i don't even feel like talking about it it's so good. so just buy it blahblah whatever what i want to rant about (i know ya'll so tired of my stinking rants. that looked like stinking rats, haha o.o) is the fact that you cannot get everything unless you a: steal or b: pay for two albums. what i mean by everything is all the possible songs you can get with it AND a hard copy of everything. i always.get hard copies of my cds unless the album is way too expensive normally or there's a song on it that i really don't want (ie (what does that mean anyway?) HB's frozen inside. it originally was wayy too expensive cuz you had to get imports from japan or something? but of course after we bought it it started getting sold for a normal price. i dont regret our itunes purchase tho because i cant STAND the preaching in the middle of the one song (i'll look it up and edit this later lol)). anywho, i am a hard copy girl. i like having that stack of CDs and seeing it grow.. i like being able to pop a cd into a cd player when i'm washing dishes, blahblah. but if i went for that option, i would get a freekin three less songs. and it's flyleaf. i wanted those songs. it didn't even give me time to think about it because one was itune's pre-order only (the other two were itunes only). the release date is day after tomorrow... so tomorrow night at midnight. so i pre-ordered and am waiting to go to itunes after it releases and see that the extra songs aren't album only.
ah well even if that's the deal, the pre-order only should still be there and i totally just tasted kool aid in my brain<3
soo yeah anywho it ticks me when artists have all these different deals when their album releases. and it's worse when you really cant have everything without stealing or paying too much.
i wish artists/record labels cared more about their fans. the only reason they are where they are is freakin because of USSS even tho we seem so unimportant *insert different illegal blogger face* so please, remind me when i am big fat and famous to only release one version of my album, with all the extra bells and whistles that would have been on an "expanded." the only problem is i wouldn't have any fans so it wouldn't matter anyway. haha jk
why isnt my mp3player working? *insert that illegal blogger face again* oh i bet it's tripping over "beautiful bride" cuz i bet its not in the right file format to play. the reason i didnt hear "keep the party alive" for a long time after i bought it.
ok bye guys have fun distributing caffeine pills at your concerts.

Live Life Loud review!

no one's gonna read this, it's too long, and either you like hawk and already have their album or you could care less because you're not into them

now to copy eight whole pages out of my journal. ohhh the torture! i haven't done this is in forever. 

live life loud by hawwkkkk nelsooonnn

the album starts out differently than maybe you would expect from hawk nelson. instead of a fat drum beat, driving guitars, or jason's punk-rock vocals, you hear a group of cheerleaders chanting, "someone throw your hands upppp! if you wanna take a chance annnnd! scream a little louder! let's wake this crowd up!" and then jason's voice comes in, echoing them in the yellish/talkish type stuff he does in "bring 'em out."  It is.. well, an interesting intro. i don't particularly dislike it, tho, as a lot of ppl seem to.  however, i do love mimicking and making fun of it :P

"Live life loud" is the first song i heard from the album.  When i first heard it, it really didn't impress me terrible, probably because i was in a cynical mindset after hawk nelson... is my friend, which, as someone said, really wasn't that good after the shininess wore off, which was how it was for me and perhaps most long-time hawk fans.

I really wanted to see jason go back to the vocal style he had on letters to the president and smile, it's the end of the world, as I absolutely loved that sound, which totally completed their punk-pop music.  His vocals were pretty much what i found missing in every other pop-punk band, altho i would hate a copycat if there was one (i suppose stellar kart is similar, but they never had quite the right sound to me, and same with MXPX, which, my guess, is that they were a musical influence for hawk nelson). 

To me, "live life loud" reflected their HN...ISMF a little too much for my paranoid liking, but i still liked it a lot, it just wasn't up to snuff with their songs on LTTP and S,ITEOTW (imo).  Perhaps the best part of this song is the hilarious music video for it: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rBbW-g9msG0 

this is probably my second fave music vid from them (actually, probably out of all music videos; "california" being number one), although it is in very close competition with "zero," but it's just easier to put the ones that make you die laughing above the more beautiful and emotional ones, lol.

I like taking side-tracks, haha.

I don't have a lot to say about "never enough" except that I ♥ it and it brought back some of the older Hawk sound I was missing.  The chorus especially, which is nice and catchy, and jas brings back his older voice.  It probably could have fit well on S,ITEOTW, which is def. a good thing.  The one thing that annoys me slightly is his yelling/talking in the verses, which to me doesn't fit or flow very well, but it's ok.

Don't let the title "Eggshells" discourage you.  Although I, too, immediately think of the odd almost fishy smell of the little bit of hard-boiled egg and juice left on an eggshell after doing a bad job of peeling one, the song sounds nothing like that smell.  In fact, it definitely brings you back to older HN with a sound that reflects LTTP pretty well, which makes me super happy cuz that was probably my fave era for them.

But what seriously ticks me off about this song is the fact that it says "FEAT. TOBYMAC."

Automatically, you expect to hear some of toby's signature "rap" somewhere in the song... what else?

How about a short, two-line singing pre-chorus, that doesn't go with the rest of the song because toby's singing voice just really doesn't go very well with Jason's.  If you didn't know the deal you might be like, "WTH. what is with jason's sudden and weird voice change? o_O"  That's how much it just... sticks out in the middle of nowhere... and then disappears.  but it works you know, as long as he gets his rap bridge.

Somehow I was just scared this whole song that FSR, even tho it makes no sense, we wouldn't get to hear much from t-mac.  maybe it was the fact that him, singing, came in so early. i dunno but i was nervous and when the bridge came and went with not a sound from tobymac, i was very scared.

Basically when the song ends it leaves you wondering if somehow you missed something and that the second time you play it you will get a nice big long rap solo from tobymac.  good luck.

still, despite the disappointment, i absolutely adore this song. it is nice and catchy and awesome. you just have to get past the words "feat. tobymac" on the CD, and it'll be an awesome song.

"The meaning of life" was the second song from this record that i heard. i enjoyed the violin intro, as it was something different for hawk, and it sounded cool, too.  However, this was also concerning me a little because it definitely wouldn't be something you'd find on LTTP or S,ITEOTW, and, as i said before, i was really hoping to death for an album more similar to those.

The song, though, was nice, even as it didn't boost my hopes much.  But it was cool that hawk WAS trying stuff out, and i liked it (i actually like it better now than i did at first, lol).  I could esp relate to the line "lately i'm tired of the life i'm living" :/ lol

"Alive" was the third song i heard from the album.  This song was good and i liked it, but i heard it hyped as one of the "best rock/harder rock songs from them/the album," which concerned me a little as it didn't really seem that hard to me.  I liked the verses but the chorus just didn't seem to have a full enough rock sound to be one of their best harder songs on the album, esp. when you compare it to something like "the one thing i have left."  but once again, still a good and enjoyable song.  i liked the "whoa," parts, haha.

"Ode to lord stanely" is just... odd&bizarre.  i really don't have much to say about this one :P

"Long ago" is a beautiful song that i think of from Jason to Lenay :) i love this one, it's so sweet and pretty.

"The job."  I LOVE this song.  It was the forth and last song i heard from the album before I got it, and it was the first song i heard [before i got lll] that i got REALLY excited about, lol.

The chorus is nice and catchy even if the verses are suuuper short and not that musical, lol.  i esp LOVE the scream and guitar solo at the bridge.  SO AMAZING. the only thing i would wish for is that the guitar solo would have gone on longer, it was so awesome!

I have NO idea what Jesusfreakhideout.com reviewer "flip" meant by "the job" "falling flat."  I'm pretty sure it's actually one of the more popular songs on the album and i know for a fact that it's (or at least was, i don't want to make this out of date XD haha) brie's favorite, lol.  Plus "Hawk Nelson is known for their hooks and these songs [the job and alive] are sadly lacking the memorable moments that make the rest of the album so special" is totally inaccurate-- "the job" is very "hookie," IMO.  idk, i thought he did a terrible job reviewing the album, esp when the first half of it had nothing to do with hawk nelson at all o_O  Sorry, that was a bit off-topic, haha.

I was a little concerned when i found out the last four songs on the album wee softies.  i love soft songs if they're not too boring and slow and draggy, have good tunes and there aren't too many on one album, but overall i'm a rocker chick, lol.  i used to be a fan of about any style but over time I came to the realization that i really like the rock songs (and now dance and electronica stuff, but i still like it best if it has a rock beat, too) the most-- they take much less time to get tired of for me, even if i liked the soft songs just as much at first.

However, these next three songs did not disappoint me, they were just so beautiful.  The first one, "shaken," is beautiful and touching.  I love the part "but you didn't see the look in her eyes--" so beautiful ( i know i keep using that word but i d k how else to describe it xD )  The only thing i would complain about is that the first line in the chorus, "I've been shaken from my head on down to my toes," just seems a little cheesy and out of place with the seriousness of the message and the rest of the song/lyrics.  I also think that really, they could have made the chorus rockier and it wouldn't have lost any of it's impact, but i do absolutely love it how it is.

"Lest we forget" is another beautiful song, in fact I like this one better than "shaken."  However, in opposition of the last song, i would actually say the title sounds too serious, not for the song since it's serious enough, but seriously, who says "lest" anymore?  lol it's so old fashioned and it just doesn't fit.  "Remember to never forget," would have been a much better title, imo, as it comes straight from the chorus, therefore it fits much better than "lest we forget" which is never in the song.  Also "remember to never forget" is a much catchier title.  But oh well, song title really doesn't matter much, but i always get gripes if i think it should have been different (like Skillet's "say goodbye" should have totally been titled "DON'T say goodbye," lol. imoimoimo.

Anyway, back to "lest we forget," (gah, the title always makes me think of the rebecca st. james song which totally doesnt fit xD lol ehem), the chorus is real catchy and emotional... it just makes you feel a certain way.. almost like happy sad... idk, but i love it when a song gives me that feeling (perhaps the best example of that feeling is hawk's "fourteen," but some *sara,brie,jonathansteignard himself,coughcough* would probably disagree).  I think of this song as like to former band members, but really it could be to any of their friends and family they have to say goodbye to when they go on tour and stuff.  like barlowgirl's "here's my life," except much better in that it keeps your interest and doesn't drag to death, lol.

"'Tis so sweet"!  I wasn't totally sure what to think of them covering a traditional hym with bagpipes.  I was kinda like, eh that doesn't sound very HNish... idk.  well, when i heard it i LOVE D it.  they still have a bit of rock in there (although they could have totally had more) for the chorus which helps it not to drag on like an old hym too much.  also, jason still sings like jason:). he didn't turn into an old choir singer or something, lol.  The only thing I'd say is that I'm not totally big on the lady's voice.  It is fine but it doesn't match hawk as it is too grown-up sounding for jason's boyish punk-pop voice, and to me it sounds like she's trying to steal the show with over-styling her voice when she is just a background singer.  to be honest i wish they had lacey from flyleaf sing in it instead as that would have been AMAZING and i think her voice would go with jason's a lottt better... in fact i think they would sound AWESOME together.  idk but that would have been cool lol.

overall, though, i really like this song.  It is something very different and awesome from hawk.

The last song, "the final toast," is my least favorite on the album (well, i'm not sure about "ode to lord stanely," lol) but i knew all along that this song was written as something jason's family asked him to write for jason's grandpa's funeral, therefore it was written as something his grandpa would like, instead of hawk nelson fans, l o l. It reflected the dunnboy's more kinda folksy sound, which makes sense since i think they were the ones who played it at the funeral.  This song is not bad, it is just not my favorite style, but that is ok with me since i totally understand why it was written and why it is there, lol. and i still enjoy it.  it is a nice tribute to jason's grandpa as the final song/toast on the album.  Unless you count the short acoustic "live life loud" bridge that goes into something about stage-fright and how we only have one chance to shine, at the end of the album some few minutes after "the final toast" ends.  and i probably wasn't supposed to give that away since it's kind of a "hidden track" and no one talks about those as not to ruin people's "surprise" and "wow i'm smart" when they discover it on the first time listening to the cd because they don't turn the cd player off as soon as "the last song" is over because it will turn off on it's own when it's ready, or because they didn't skip to the next song on their mp3player or itunes during the suspicious blankness at the end of "the final toast" or the last song on whatever cd it is.

anywho, i love this album. i think my fave hawk albums are gonna stick with letters to the president and smile, it's the end of the world, perhaps the whole way, but i love this album and it is def. a step up, or back, in a good way ;), from hawk nelson... is my friend.

Live Life Loud is awesome and i totally recommend it! :) :D

November-2009, a rhyme-rhyme poem

Life is time

And it's speeding by

Faster than the speed of light

In the blink of an eye

The darkness will sneak up from behind

Closing the curtain of our lives

Forcing our tiny lips to bid this world goodnight

And pushing our frail bodies through the door of our goodbye

Life is time

And this is what will become of mine~~

this is kind of, what i think about a lot and how i feel a lot. i know, so depressing.

I love you could not be said a better way

sara and i were at the mall with hannah and krista. and krista asked if we liked family force 5. she was like, usually ppl either love them or think they're really weird (fyi at this point, i love them and think they're really weird). krista loved them. hannah thought they were weird and didn't like them. and frankly sara and i agreed with hannah. now truthfully i never really gave their music a listen. i got kinda turned off to the beginning of their "kountry gentleman" music vid cuz it starts on a girl's belly, and that's just weird and disturbing. so i was like ew they're weird and i didn't give them much of a chance. i would have prolly listened to their music to see what it was like, but i didn't and so i missed out.
(and btw i absolutely loved that music vid when i watched the whole thing)
but i vaguely remember krista saying that their podcasts or whatever were reeally hilarious.
i should have gone home and looked them up immediately, but not being into the band i didn't.
finally, about two years later i fall in love with family force five. i think i decided to give the songs on the free EP we got a listen on youtube. i liked them. i couldn't lie to myself. i liked them. but i didn't bother to check out any more of their songs, fsr. sometime around then i was in an argument with this um guy on this forum. he was bashing them and being stupid and i decided to argue what he was saying cuz it was totally lame. somehow that was the final... straw sounds weird... but thing... that got me into them. i started listening to their songs, and i'm like.. yeah. i like 'em. they're pretty goodz. i dug out that old ep, put it on my mp3 player, and was ticked because sara hadn't downloaded one of their songs we could have gotten for free a long time ago and now i wanted it.
eventually, after i got a twitter, i ended up following all of them because Jesusfreakhideout linked to their twitters to follow them because of their "scavenger hunt" contest thing. i got some laughs from their tweets, esp soul glow cuz he tweets the most and is pretty funny.
then the day before yesterday their band's twitter linked to a (what i thought was new but turns out it is from over a year ago) "really real show," whatever that was. i clicked it and it was like a podcast. it was kinda funny.. but i didn't totally get it, and i'd prolly get it much better now that i know their humor and who everyone is and stuff. but i ended up watching the next most recent one, and the next one, and the next one.. i was totally hooked.
they gotta be the funniest peeps alive. and their vids gotta be the funniest vids alive. om.g. i was absolutely DYING trying not to laugh, so everyone wouldnt be like, what are you laughing about and butt in a stuff. it was so hard tho. i'd like pretend to pick at stuff in my teeth as an excuse for why my mouth was going like wider. i would cover my mouth with my hand. i would have to pause the vids sooo much at hilarious moments to stop myself from totally busting.
i watched all their twenty something vids in three days (the end of one, all of one, and the beginning of one). if i hadn't discovered them so late the first day, and didn't have computer time limits that i totally didn't pay attention to, i prolly coulda watched them all in one day.
i was sad this morning when i had only four more left. i was suuper sad when i had 0 left. but i re-watched the valentine's day one and it's just as funny.
i have no idea why i'm making this long rant post about them. i guess they are that good but i totally thought of a short way to write this and forgot Dx bah.
anyway, gotta link you guys to one anyway. now i am aware that none of you want to click a random youtube link, esp when you're already yawning from this long, boring, lame post, but click it ! JUST CLICK IT. hopefully you'll get hooked and have to watch all of them like me. trust me when you're done you do not feel like you wasted your time/life because it's so much more fun to watch their life than live yours.
so this one is slightly different than the rest (read the description) but it still gives you a good idea of what they're like and stuff. and i just really like this one. lol.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_vudVyHI4jM&feature=related
but you have to watch em all. i mean in all seriousness i could link to sooooo many right now. and i want to. but i do not want to burden your souls. lolz. even tho it would be far from a burden if you watched them. but the pressure of feeling like you have to watch fifteen billion youtube links is awful. i know. but one? what's one?

like someone said on youtube in a comment under the valentines day one (number 5. YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS ONE. i have watched it three times over the past two days, twice with myself and once with my sister. too.funny. i'm not linking tho so you wont feel like overwhelmed but SEARCH IT ON YOUTUBE IF IT'S NOT UNDER RELATED VIDS to THE FIRST ONE oh yeah back to the point), "Like, even if I hated Family Force 5 music I'd probably still watch this show because it's ridiculous!"
FO SURE!

freaking ticked.

i totally just signed up for a music myspace page yesterday & i cannot figure out how to , um , edit what my page looks like. background, text, etcetc. it is freaking ticking me off. in "tom"'s email "he" is all like "P.S. One thing I can't help you with is HTML/decorating your profile; if you want to customize your profile click here!"

*here* just takes me to my *customize profile* page, which does me no good cuz all it is about is upcoming shows, musician details, basic info, manage featured songs, and listing info. YEAH that is really decorating my profile, thank you.

i've looked in every possible corner of myspace that would make sense (and not make sense) to look. nothing. it is ticking me off to no end. i know that artists' have their backgrounds and junk... but if it was like this for them, how the heck did they ever find how to do it? it should be SUPER obvious but it isn't, if it is even there. fgnhjmtjhrgegegbe SOMEONE HELP ME! 

*edit* ok so im pretty dang sure it's on myspace's end of things, since both the "edit profile" and "customize profile" links go to the same page, which makes no sense at all.

why, does everything i want to put my songs have to suddenly get messed up like this? and these are biig sites. freewebs, myspace.. you cant get any bigger! grr. i sure hope *tom* will read my email and fix it.>.< i wonder if anyone else is having this problem?

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